Progress, Not Perfection

ARGHHH!

 

There have been so many times in which I did not start a project or start anything really, because I wanted perfection on the first try. It sounds unrealistic but being wrong and looking like a fool scared me more than anything.

Now that I’m approaching my mid-twenties, not starting anything makes me feel stale. Actually, it makes me feel like a prune, just watching everything goes by as I rot away.

Well…no more!!!

I’m slowly waking up and getting my life together.

First step, waking up before 12pm. Hopefully this will last for more than a month so it can become a habit.  🙂

The Long Awaited Apology 

To my dearest mother,

apologized for all the years of pain I have caused upon you.

I once had great animosity towards you.
I was a reflection of you and I did not like what I see in the mirror.
I could see your weakness, your poor lack of judgement, and your wrinkles.
All I coud seewas imperfection and a flaw human being.
And still, I continue to see imperfection and a flaw human being.

But now I love every inch of you.
I love the way you are able to show vulnerability to your children, it taught us to love with an open heart regardless of the difficulty.
I love how you tried your best in every situation regardless of the outcome. I am thankful of your ability to have the courage to take risk and try new things with an open mind.
I love you with every new wrinkles that appears on your face, which gracefully captures your beauty and wisdom.
I am a reflection of you and I absolutely love what I see in the mirror.

I love you with every inch of my heart.

Love,
Your daughter

Lost and Found: Vision

My vision is clouded and I am lost. I am not sure what I am supposed to do. I decided to pull an all-nighter so that I can wake up on time for work the following day. Honestly, I hate working on Saturday mornings. Anyways, I went to the supermarket to get some supplies for my class and along the way,  I looked down and my gas tank is almost empty. Not wanting to go to the gas station between my apartment and the supermarket (I believe they see my face too often), I decided to go to another gas station which was even farther away. I ended up passing the original gas station I avoided as I was scooting home.

The main point of this story was that I have an idea of what I wanted to do, but I will often make it longer for myself by avoiding the original plan. I am happy to know that whatever it is that I wanted to do, or vision what my future is, I will get there. I just need more confidence to follow through with my decisions because I can do it!

Believe and achieve!

The First Step

As I sit in my room with my high knee socks stretched way above my knees and K-pop blasting from my broken screen phone, I questioned about life. Yea, that’s right, I think this would be a good time to question about life. I ran far away from home because I thought it would be much greener on the other side. Turns out, there are still some patches of untamed grass just hiding behind a bush.

Anyways, I’m just a twenty year old something on a search to find happiness…and superpowers to save the Earth from destruction, and finding a way to buy my family a house. You know, typical things that any twenty year old something would want. Somehow this also includes having a memory of a ninety year old, so I need something to help me remember what I did last month, or even last night.

Taking my steps slowly but surely, this is the start to my beautiful journey of happiness.